Ghiradhelli all over

it's driving me mad, its DRIVING ME MAD!

Fri, 09 Jan 2009 22:40:03 GMT

I want you so baaaad it's driving me mad, it's driving me MAD!

Anyway, other than being into a guy who lives 5 hours away, I'm turning 20 tommorow.

Technically, I won't be a teenager anymore...but then again, I never feel like I got to be a teenager in the first place. I grew up too fast- in my eyes, I grep up when I was ten years old. I had too many responsibilities, and I learned how to take care of myself and be independent. Even now I have trouble accepting help from people because I got used to doing everything by myself.A

BLABBETY BLAH

So tommorow I stop being something that I never was in the first place...weird.

BLABETTY BLAH BLAH

Anyway, back to the man I want (so bad it's driving me mad)...

Sometimes I feel as if I'm wasting my time with him, and he will never see me in that way, and that frustrates me more than anything. It's as if god is playing with me- the guys that I'm attracted to are not attracted to me, and the guys that are attrated to me I'm not attracted to them.

I'm tired of it!

BLABETTY BLAH BLAH BLAH

Deuces.

You make me wanna

Thu, 08 Jan 2009 02:37:53 GMT

You make me wanna
Laugh
Cry
Dance
Collapse
Sing
Scream
You make me feel
Happy
Sad
Angry, but just a tad
Shy
nostalgic
giddy
You make my heart
Miss a beat
ache for your love
warm with compassion
nervous as hell
doubtful
and overjoyed

most of all...

I WANT YOU SO BAAAAD-
IT'S DRIVING ME MAD,
IT'S DRIVING ME MAD!

oh, geez

Thu, 10 Apr 2008 07:28:12 GMT

I hate dealing with bad situations. It's my weakness, and I know it, but whenever something bad happens, I say something like "Ponies are cute' or "do you want some chocolate?" , then I just block out the bad parts.
Well, a friend of mine is going through some bad times and I feel bad b/c I'm not really helping her get through it. I let her talk, then after she's done talking I change the subject to something light, but I don't actually talk back to her--I don't know what to say and I don't wanna say the wrong thing, but I do listen.
I feel horrible for not being better at this, but I've had my share of bad situation and I guess my brain's just not ready for more.
But I really do feel horrible.

Quarterlife

Fri, 29 Feb 2008 00:33:21 GMT

Is the new show of my obsession.
It captures me and keeps me interested for a long, long time.

Anyway, not only does is it a show, it is also a blogging community. It has video blogs and I joined it to see what it would be like, and surprisingly, I liked it.

Alot.

Everyone should watch this show- it's so real (I mean, you think it's real after you start watching it). Yes, it's one of those shows.

If you're interested, go to www.quarterlife.com and then click on 'the show' link.

or you could make a profile there...whatever you do, just give the show a chance. Watch it at least once- You'll love it!

the pigsty I call my room

Sat, 23 Feb 2008 23:29:27 GMT

It took me THREE hours to clean it up.
THREE HOURS!
not to mention, three big trash bags full of shit I had no idea I was keeping
and a vacuum cleaner full of whatever it is it gathers from the carpet.
I keep on wondering- I live in a dorm and I clean up maybe once a month
(I mean the big clean ups, like behind the bed under the table; i usually just pick up after myself and do dishes weekly)
how will I keep up with a whole apartment? (which I am getting this fall)
I will not only have to clean my room, but the kitchen, the bathroom, dining room...etc.
That is going to be interesting.

on a lighter tone,
at least I don't have to worry about cleaning my room for a while now.

with who?

Thu, 21 Feb 2008 07:05:38 GMT

with the one guy you find yourself thinking of
right before you go to bed
and after you wake up
the guy whose presence in your fantasies makes you sway
and whose presence in real life is orgasmic
the guy who makes you smile
and cry
just by saying a couple of words
or giving you that certain look
the guy that sometimes makes you speechless
and sometimes makes you blabber with no end
the guy who you wish for a glimpse of everyday
but you ignore because you are scared
they guy who means nothing to you
but everything to your heart
the guy whose touch you yearn
whose kiss you wish for
the guy you want
inside and out

You make me feel

Fri, 15 Feb 2008 18:43:47 GMT

So Mad!

And by 'You', I don't mean one particular person...i mean a couple of people.
They just make me mad and very, very frustrated.

It's so bad that i cant stand to be in the same room as them and i have to leave.
- I know, it sucks and it may seem like I'm being mean by walking out, but I'd rather leave than end up saying ALOT of things that will hurt their feelings.

It's my way of controlling myself.

So, as a warning- if you meet me and come to know me, and one day you see me biting the inside of my cheeks then walking out- let me be. I'll cool down, and when I'm ready I'll be back.

the southwestern company

Wed, 13 Feb 2008 02:39:07 GMT

Who the hell are they?
are they good.....evil.....or not important enough to care for?

The thing is, they are an internship company that apparently offers students a chance to make more than 9,000 dollars each summer- I know...sounds like a scam, right?

Well, I'm not sure if I think they are a scam yet- they might be telling the truth, but then again, it might be an internship from hell.

So, here are the details I have so far:

-They've been around forEVER
-Your job is to go door to door selling books
-They take you out of state
-They have been known to make students knock door to door to find a place to live
-They are VERY controlling
-They have been banned from three (or two) schools- I'm not exactly sure
-They have been banned from Wisconsin
-It's alot of money to make, but there's no guarantee you'll make that much

So you make the decision- is the money worth all the troubles you might go through?

I'm not sure, but if I decide that it's all worth it in the end, THIS BETTER BE A FUCKING GOOD PROGRAM.

And also, if it's such a great program, HOW COMES NO ONE I KNOW HAS HEARD OF IT???

I have this feeling of accomplishment

Tue, 12 Feb 2008 04:14:00 GMT

In me.
for my photography class today I had my photo critique and guess what?

They liked it!

I know, I know, it shouldn't matter whether anyone likes my photography except for me, but you have no idea how good it feels when someone tells you that your pictures are amazing.

IT'S THE BEST FEELING IN THE WORLD!

oh, I love it!

ahhhhh.

it gave my teacher goosebumps- in her exact words.

Also- in deviantart, people have been favoriting my pictures.....
feels goooood...it's guuuuuuuuuuuuud............

I had a good day.

Photography and I

Mon, 11 Feb 2008 01:46:44 GMT

Photography is number one of my hobbies.
It is the King, the god, the Alpha and Omega

you get it now.

I haven't been serious about it for a very long time- it's been about two years, but hey; that doesn't make me bad at it. There are times when I'm shocked at the pictures I take, but then again, there are times when I am ashamed.

I love taking picture that has to do with different lights. Candle light is amazing- my favorite, but I also like taking pictures in the sunset.

For some reason, I'm really good at taking landscapes. I guess it's a gift, but honestly, it's not what I want to do. Sure, landscape is awesome, but I like dealing with people.

I wish I could take my landscape skills and exchange them with my portrait skills.
someday.

I am getting better at everything, though and I'm actually thinking about buying some HD lenses and filters for my camera...sometime this month I'll have them.

But for now, I have promised myself to take my camera everywhere. I can't count how many times I've gone somewhere and seen a picture-perfect scene only to realize I have no camera.
Grrr.
That is about to change,
Promise.

Just Fuck Me, For Fuck's sake. (JFMFFS)

Sun, 10 Feb 2008 00:30:54 GMT

Why the vulgar language, you ask. The answer is simple.
I felt like it.
But seriously, sometimes I just want to say that to a guy. Forget all the formalities (eg, how are you, I've missed you, you look so nice) and get to the point.

Just do it!

Not all girls like playing the 'propriety game'. Some (aka I) just want to get to the point.

You can romance me after.

Guys are always complaining that girls always want more than sex- that they can never find a girl who'll just do it and leave. Well, they are wrong. You guys need to start looking in the right places.
And stop complaining when you fail, for fuck's sake.

THAT WAS MY HEARTLESS COMMENT OF THE DAY...

BUT WAIT...THERE'S MORE!...BUT THIS STUFF IS LESS "out there" AND MORE SENTIMENTAL.

I want to get you drunk and fuck you crazy.

psych!

Ghiradhelli

Sun, 03 Feb 2008 22:23:24 GMT

Some may wonder why I chose
GHIRADHELLI
as my user name...
well, the answer is simple.
I HAVE A STRANGE BUT VERY BIG OBSESSION WITH CHOCOLATE.
I love dark chocolate, milk chocolate, plain chocolate, chocolate with nuts, chocolate with mint, chocolate with alcohol...basically chocolate with everything.
I BLAME THIS OBSESSION ON MY (FIRST) FATHER...
Now, I know it's bad to play the blame game, but when I was little, My dad used to take me and my brother to the store every morning before school. He's get us chocolate and so began my obsession.
But yeah.
Right now I absolutely love the double dutch chocolate chip muffins from H.E.B...they are absolutely AMAZING!
So if I'm ever mad at you, for any reason at all...you know what to do.